i have been offered a pot money by my parents of which i could get the big simple wedding... & the rest is ours to keep to start our lives together.

but i won't get the money i

i am due to see my fiance early tomorrow. he'd take the first flight to davao... & yes... i'll be seeing him before sunrise.

so, we have a lot to talk about.
basially, on whether we'd take on my parent's offer or we'd go down the highway.

anyways, let me list down the things that my blog seems to be lacking:
1. our love story... (another page)
2. my dream wedding (blog entry)
3. the dreams that i have been weaving (blog entry)
4. wedding planning (another blog) - for all the tips, budget, etc.
5. wedding suppliers (another blog) - of which i'd start with davao of course
6. real weddings (another blog) - for my friend's wedding & celebrity weddings... the latter will be more or less a paraphrase of magazines since i won't be invited to their wedding...
7. honeymoon (another blog) - i'd start in our islands

Honestly speaking... i think I am loosing the battle for my intimate wedding if i were to have good relations with some of my family.

i really hope that when i come to have a child's wedding in the future... that i wouldn't impress what i want over my child's dream.

disclaimer: my Papa had been so gracious about letting me know that i could have it as we planned it.
the problem is ith Mama's family.
I really don't belong in their big family, they have lots of superstitious beliefs and a weird sense of being a family.
I wish they were to watch Lilo & Stitch so they'd have an idea of what real family is like... that it's more than the blood-link but actually a bond that is more stronger than just shared lineage.

My mother, on her talk with one of my "ate" friends, told her that she can't seem to place where i got my idea or notion of hating the whole big wedding scheme...
well, i know the chances of her running into my blog is like down to 0%... but let me share my point of view anyways...
1. i want as little stress as possible.
yeah, right. The more the merrier. but to me... it means the more the CHAOS... not to mention the gastos.
Let's face it... in these tough times, a few thousand save from a wedding could amount to a start of a small business or a living room showcase or a fully furnished bedroom.
2. yes... the budget
while my parents had alreasy said that they would provide for the extra...
but wouldn't it be more meaningful to have us spend for our wedding? & don't they have another place/thing to spend their money for? (we are not rich)
3. the intimacy
being with only a few people would make everyone enjoy the wedding better. I'd be surrounded with people i love & around those who love me.
so, it's like an intimate reunion and celebration where the family could relax... and yes... just like drinking coffee.

i could go on & on about why i'd prefer a smaller bunch.
pre-wedding, it's more on the lesser expenses & lesser stress... in the wedding, it's more on the intimacy & a controlled chaos... post-wedding, it's more of the lesser talks & complaints on the negative aspect of your whole wedding.
i mean, i'd rather have them complain about why they weren't invited than have them at my wedding, paying for their meals, and them, rewarding me with complaints & criticisms... call me paranoid... but i really wouldn't want that.

NOW... looking at the brighter side...
if i were to go into all the hastles and bustles of a big wedding...
who says i couldn't have my own little wedding?
that intimate wedding of 20-30 that i've dreamt of?
*wink*

i actually have a plan in mind... 

it's been a long while since the last time i blogged...

i don't know if i ca follow this through... but i'm here to destress & prevent myself from being the annoying bridezilla...

i never really realized the work & the pressure that comesalong with preparing a wedding...
worse, there aren't a lot of sources on one stop wedding help in the net for would-be-brides like me from davao....

anyways... i know i am blogging nonsense... but maybe i'll learn to have some sense soon...